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02/10/2008

We also pray that you will be strengthened with his glorious power so that you will
have all the patience and endurance you need. Colossians 1:11 (NLT)

Today I’m spending the day at home, and it seems the Lord keeps prompting me to write, but I don’t want to write because I’m trying not to be angry, and I’m trying to be patient, and if I write, will I write out of anger? Will I write out of impatience? I want the Holy Spirit within me to be my strength, and to control what’s not so pretty in me right now, but maybe this is how God will use His Spirit to work this out in me today. I will watch Him work, as my fingers type….

I’m angry with the seemingly lack of understanding of the uniqueness in each person that is dealt with by the medical profession, and the realization that patients are not a chart number, not a case, but a person with a family, with emotions, with fears, with plans and ideas—and not wanting to be anymore a part of the medical system than the next guy, but sometimes ending up there anyway. We need the medical system, but it’s not fun, and it’s time-consuming, and we’d just rather not. And if the doctors and their staff don’t seem to love the people they treat as much as they love the medicine they practice, it can bring on anger…which is what I don’t want to write about today. But, I will…

We have to pray for one another because we need God’s glorious power, otherwise our patience and endurance will be lacking! It vanishes quickly as troubles mount and we’re not feeling well, and phone calls don’t come, and answers aren’t given, and the clock ticks away as our lives are put on hold until someone is available to “take our call.” Why do we get so frustrated and angry? It’s probably because we are not in control, and we want to be. We want to be able to call the doctor and say, “This is what’s happening, here’s what I think you should do,” and that’s that. But instead, we sort of get put back into that child’s role of being good, being quiet, waiting, and then eventually being told what to do and when. And we’re not very good at it, are we? Not after we’ve grown up and are used to making our own decisions about most things. That’s why we need God’s glorious power so that we can have all the patience and endurance needed along the way. God wasn’t writing a children’s book when He wrote the Bible, He was writing our manual for the life of adults who need His help, His care, His concern, and His love.

We’re not meant to live on this earth without the help of our Father in Heaven, without His Words of instruction. What we’re supposed to do is set our “sights on the realities of heaven, where Christ sits at God’s right hand in the place of honor and power.” (Colossians 3:1 NLT) If we’re setting our sights on this world, then we’ll probably be disappointed in this life. Many times we’ll try to operate without the Holy Spirit’s power and then when life gets frustrating, or we are called to wait, we can get angry and impatient and scared and feel forgotten by those who we think should care for us more. But with the Holy Spirit guiding our every step, we can at least know that Someone understands our uniqueness; that we’re not just a case number to our Father. He knows what’s best for us. He listens to our every thought and loves us with an unconditional love. When we call on God to help us, our thoughts can begin to rest in His Words of Truth for our answer. Our Father’s care can be immediate…as impatient children, God knows we like that!