Worsening

Friday, 26 Oct 2001

Hi all,

I feel the need to let you know that Phil has had a very rough week. Not that he has not had rough times in the past, because you all know he has, but this week seems to have taken us down a new path. If not for God's peace, I do not know how we would see to walk, but with God, we are able to get through each day, each hour, with His strength. Maybe things will turn around once again, maybe God still has complete healing in store for Phil, and maybe not... I do know that Phil was so sick earlier in the week, we started making some decisions that we have held off on for quite awhile. It seemed that it was time to make sure things are in place for comfort and care that he may need. That is our goal, to keep him comfortable and just love him as much as we can. Today is a good day. He and Jim are off at the movies, which is something Phil always enjoys. Many things that he wants to do, he knows he is just not able, and he calmly accepts that. There are not really words to explain all that we feel because at times it doesn't even seem real to us. This has been such a long road that I think it's hard to conceive that we may be coming to the end of it, although we can surely see that Phil is very tired. There's not a whole lot more to say right now because we are just taking it hour by hour and thanking God for each day he gives us together, but I wanted to ask you to please continue to pray for Phil's healing and also for his comfort through this stage of his illness.

If you wonder how we are doing, we are doing fine. We serve a good God who truly does carry us when we are weakest. We found out a long time ago that this is out of our control, and even though we like things in our control as human beings, it is much easier to relinquish that and just become as children, asking God what He would have us do, and following Him.

Romans 8:16-18
The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God's children. Now if we are children, then we are heirs - heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory. I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.

Thank you for all your prayers!

Love, The Shore Family