Saturday, 10 Nov 2001

Romans 12:12
Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.

Just spending the morning reading God's word and when I read this, it pretty much summed it up. There aren't many words to describe this time in our lives, but we are joyful in hope, being patient in affliction, and ever prayerful.

Each day seems to bring on a new challenge. Each morning as we get up, having slept all night without an incident, we are grateful. Each morning that I can go into Phil's room and see him sleeping comfortably, or looking up at me one more time, I am grateful.

We have grown so close, to imagine life without him is unbearable, but because we have grown so close and talked about so many things, it also makes it bearable. It's a strange mixture of emotions. There is joy in our hearts for the healing that is to come, whether that be here or in heaven. But it is to come. This cannot go on forever, and as strange as that may seem, it is comforting. Five and one half years of the "flu" is quite enough!

That is sort of it in a nutshell. In Spring of '96, Phil got the flu, and he has never recovered. Can you imagine? Wouldn't you be sick of it? I get a cold for a few days and I say enough! He has been more than "patient in affliction"! What a journey he is having.

God's plan for his life is not an easy one, but it is certainly a rewarding one. Our time here is so short compared to eternity. We were watching the movie "Bedazzled" the other day, about selling your soul for riches or whatever on earth. Phil was like, "Mom, why would they ever want to do that". I think his focus is so off of what this world has to offer compared to what heaven offers him, that he can't imagine someone being that short sighted. If you don't think that is amazing to watch in a 16 year old boy..... He is so full of hope for what is to come.

We saw the new "Monsters Inc." movie that is out. I think that's the name of it. (Yes, we watch a lot of movies) Anyway, in the movie there are these doors that take them into another room/world. It reminded me of the door to heaven, and how stepping through it we will be transported into another world that we can't imagine, but it is closer than we can imagine too. Our loved ones aren't far away, we just can't see them anymore. Not until we walk through that door.

Matthew 7:7-8
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened."

We have asked for healing, and it will come, we have sought God and we have found Him, we have knocked on the door and it will be opened. God's promises are true, we are living in them and rejoicing in the midst of our circumstances. The tears fall, the heart aches, but the joy remains.

We don't know if we have a day, a month or a lifetime ahead with Phil, but I will leave this computer and go into his room, give him a kiss and a hug, see if he needs anything, and thank God for another moment with him.

Thank you for your prayers!

Love, The Shore Family


This Day

This day holds all your promises, the sun shines in on me
The hope of all your goodness, is all that I can see
It blinds me to the darkness, it warms me to the soul
It keeps me moving forward, for if the truth be told
I would not have the strength, to go it one more step
If You weren't here to lift me, and fill me with Your breath
It refreshes all my aching, and all my worries too
Changing them to joy and hope, focusing on You
This life can be a burden, this day can be too hard
But looking to the future, when tears won't be a part
Of any day we're living, when all has passed away
It keeps me moving forward, looking to that day
You've given us a life to live, a precious gift it is
You want us to enjoy it, and we do, but in the midst
Of all the good and wonderful, are times of hurt and pain
Just like You said there would be, but what always does remain
Is You, our Lord and Savior, the One who helps us through
When the day is difficult, we can always count on You

Romans 8:38
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.